Today is a day to celebrate the love in our lives. If you don’t have a romantic Valentine, that’s okay!
Ah, medications. I’m thankful they exist to help me, and others, to improve our quality of life and be able to function as best we are able. Currently, my AM medications are on the light side, I was kicked off my health insurance for a few months in 2017 and had to cut down to the very minimum that I needed to function. Ranitidine – GERD Progesterone – Premenstrual Dysmorphic Disorder and Polycystic Ovary Syndrome Previously I also took Synthroid for hypothyroidism; I ought to get back on that. It helped with my symptoms. My evening medications consist of Ranitidine – GERD Sertraline aka Zoloft – Depression, PTSD, PMDD, OCD Cetirizine aka Zyrtec – Allergies Azo – IC Hydroxyzine – Anxiety and insomnia
Finding relief is quite the task, especially when a person has more than one condition that causes pain or uncomfortable
I had to think about this a bit and came up with this list. My cats Anytime I feel cruddy I go to my cats. Petting and snuggling with them helps me focus on something positive and comforting Video games Video games keep me distracted and entertained My go to movies Alien, Aliens, Pacific Rim, LoTR, and a few others help me be distracted Music Genre depends on my mood, I like metal, some pop, trance/house/etc., classical or soundtracks Audiobooks If I am unable to focus, I will go for audiobooks while I’m laying down and resting
Due to my inability to work a “normal” job *annoyed face*, I am working on a couple avenues of income that are more flexible than a more traditional office career. Freelancing as a project coordinator and volunteer manager with administrative assistance experience, and writing my blog and fictional stories. I’m starting to write based on dreams I have had. I’ll be expanding these, mostly, incomplete stories into both written and webcomic forms. I hope. I have quite a bit of drawing and webcomic practice in my future, and I need to read more about creative writing and how to tell great stories (I’m told by friends that I am a decent storyteller and just need to expand on these dreams). Thankfully I have a lot of material to work with, my subconscious is quite imaginative. I will continue my blog because it is essential to me to create space for others who need a place they feel comfortable, as well
A friend of mine shared an article on social media titled “A Story of a Fuck Off Fund” where the author talks about how our financial limitations can lead us to feel trapped. Trapped in a toxic work environment, an abusive relationship, putting up with harassment because you “…need this job, there are bills to pay.” I stayed in an abusive marriage for far too long because I didn’t have financial options and my ex exploited my anxiety and depression, and then later my health problems, to keep me under his control. Granted this is even harder to do when a person doesn’t make enough to really have a bug out fund to protect themselves from these kinds of situations, which I find to be a travesty and why so many underprivileged folks end up in abusive and toxic conditions. Put up with harassment at work and have a roof and food over their head? Or quit and live out
My pain comes from multiple sources; Interstitial Cystitis, osteoarthritis, headaches/migraines/sinuses, fibromyalgia, and sometimes IBS. I have kept a pain diary to track my symptoms and draw correlations between food, activities, weather, and the like, to my pain. Correlation does not equal causation, but it’s a place to start. Especially with diseases that are not well understood. The favored approach to asking about pain is to measure it on a scale of 1 to 10, this tool isn’t the best because it assumes the person only has a single type of pain at any given time. For those of us who suffer from multiple pain conditions, this query seems like a trick question. I’ve started focusing on each individually if I’m in for a specific thing I stick to that. A snapshot of this moment: 1 = No pain, 10 = Worst pain imaginable Right now my overall pain is 5, there are no days when I’m pain-free. Most days I’m
Hobbies! (I had a little time to squeeze this in) I have a lot of hobbies. I love to make/create things, it’s improved my mood, and I feel like I accomplished something when I finish a project. Knitting I’m going to learn to crochet this year. Yay YouTube! It’s a fun activity to do while watching TV/Movies. Sewing I like to make my own clothing and costumes from time-to-time. I also enjoy silk embroidery. Painting and drawing On pretty much anything. I find it relaxing. Photography I have a quality DSLR, and I love taking photos outside when I’m feeling up to it. Camping I feel the most relaxed and happy when I am able to disconnect and enjoy nature. Also, gives me lots to photograph. Reading/audiobooks Stories are essential, reading can improve empathy. The Scientific American and The Washington Post wrote articles about the subject. Fantasy, Sci-fi, horror, and graphic novels/comics. Learning new skills Games Board games, table-top, card,
It’s a temporary fix to fill our lives with stuff to make ourselves feel better, and it comes with a monetary and mental cost. Check out this post by Dr. Perry on MakeItUltra.
I have some work deadlines coming up that I have to make, so I’m playing catch up because of the cold I had. Unfortunately, this leaves me with little time to work on blogging, at least for the next couple weeks. I will post if I manage to catch up sooner than I expect. *Crossing my fingers* I’ve been more tired than usual the past few days, so I’ve been napping quite a bit. I’m an independent contractor/freelancer due to my health issues, luckily I am able to wear many hats, as it were, due to my volunteer work and college classes. Self-care is important, don’t put yourself down for falling ill or having sick days. Your body needs you to take care of it. It’s cold and flu season, please use proper hygiene and consider wearing a mask, even if you aren’t sick. I carry a mask, hand sanitizer, and wash my hands extra when I’m out.