30 Things, Distractions

I had to think about this a bit and came up with this list.

My cats

  • Anytime I feel cruddy I go to my cats. Petting and snuggling with them helps me focus on something positive and comforting

Video games

  • Video games keep me distracted and entertained

My go to movies

  • Alien, Aliens, Pacific Rim, LoTR, and a few others help me be distracted

Music

  • Genre depends on my mood, I like metal, some pop, trance/house/etc., classical or soundtracks

Audiobooks

  • If I am unable to focus, I will go for audiobooks while I’m laying down and resting

 

Looking Forward

Due to my inability to work a “normal” job *annoyed face*, I am working on a couple avenues of income that are more flexible than a more traditional office career. Freelancing as a project coordinator and volunteer manager with administrative assistance experience, and writing my blog and fictional stories.

I’m starting to write based on dreams I have had. I’ll be expanding these, mostly, incomplete stories into both written and webcomic forms. I hope. I have quite a bit of drawing and webcomic practice in my future, and I need to read more about creative writing and how to tell great stories (I’m told by friends that I am a decent storyteller and just need to expand on these dreams). Thankfully I have a lot of material to work with, my subconscious is quite imaginative.

I will continue my blog because it is essential to me to create space for others who need a place they feel comfortable, as well as work on myself. Being able to express myself in my own space is beneficial to my mental health, and helps me process things.

 

The F Off Fund

A friend of mine shared an article on social media titled “A Story of a Fuck Off Fund” where the author talks about how our financial limitations can lead us to feel trapped. Trapped in a toxic work environment, an abusive relationship, putting up with harassment because you “…need this job, there are bills to pay.”

I stayed in an abusive marriage for far too long because I didn’t have financial options and my ex exploited my anxiety and depression, and then later my health problems, to keep me under his control.

Granted this is even harder to do when a person doesn’t make enough to really have a bug out fund to protect themselves from these kinds of situations, which I find to be a travesty and why so many underprivileged folks end up in abusive and toxic conditions. Put up with harassment at work and have a roof and food over their head? Or quit and live out of their car?

30 Things, Pain Level

My pain comes from multiple sources; Interstitial Cystitis, osteoarthritis, headaches/migraines/sinuses, fibromyalgia, and sometimes IBS. I have kept a pain diary to track my symptoms and draw corrilations between food, activities, weather, and the like, to my pain. Correlation does not equal causation, but it’s a place to start. Especially with diseases that are not well understood.

The favored approach to asking about pain is to measure it on a scale of 1 to 10, this tool isn’t the best because it assumes the person only has a single type of pain at any given time. For those of us who suffer from multiple pain conditions, this query seems like a trick question. I’ve started focusing on each individually if I’m in for a specific thing I stick to that.

A snapshot of this moment:

1 = No pain, 10 = Worst pain imaginable

Right now my overall pain is 5, there are no days when I’m pain-free. Most days I’m between 3 and 6.

My IC is currently a 3, it’s there, but I can ignore it.

Fibro is at 5 to 6, I’m aching quite a bit today, and I’m not able to ignore it.

Arthritis is 2, it’s not really bothering me much today, so that’s a win.

Headaches/Migraines/Sinuses are at a 3 today. No migraine, but my sinuses are a little inflamed and causing some pain.

IBS is not currently bothering me, so I put it at 1.

 

30 Things, Hobbies

Hobbies! (I had a little time to squeeze this in)

I have a lot of hobbies. I love to make/create things, it’s improved my mood, and I feel like I accomplished something when I finish a project.

  • ¬†Knitting
    • I’m going to learn to crochet this year. Yay YouTube!
    • It’s a fun activity to do while watching TV/Movies.
  • Sewing
    • I like to make my own clothing and costumes from time-to-time.
    • I also enjoy silk embroidery.
  • Painting and drawing
    • On pretty much anything. I find it relaxing.
  • Photography
    • I have a quality DSLR, and I love taking photos outside when I’m feeling up to it.
  • Camping
    • I feel the most relaxed and happy when I am able to disconnect and enjoy nature.
    • Also, gives me lots to photograph.
  • Reading/audiobooks
  • Learning new skills
  • Games
    • Board games, table-top, card, video, I like them all.
  • Other random things I pick up because I like making stuff with my hands.
  • Volunteering
    • I have volunteered for animal rescues, literacy and art, and health.

What are your hobbies?

And now I’m tired, so I’m going to go lay on my heating pad in a nest of blankets. Have a wonderful night!

Brief Hiatus

I have some work deadlines coming up that I have to make, so I’m playing catch up because of the cold I had. Unfortunately,¬† this leaves me with little time to work on blogging, at least for the next couple weeks. I will post if I manage to catch up sooner than I expect. *Crossing my fingers* I’ve been more tired than usual the past few days, so I’ve been napping quite a bit.

I’m an independent contractor/freelancer due to my health issues, luckily I am able to wear many hats, as it were, due to my volunteer work and college classes.

Self-care is important, don’t put yourself down for falling ill or having sick days. Your body needs you to take care of it. It’s cold and flu season, please use proper hygiene and consider wearing a mask, even if you aren’t sick. I carry a mask, hand sanitizer, and wash my hands extra when I’m out.