Crochet

I’ve been watching YouTube videos on how to crochet. I can knit decently, but always wanted to learn to crochet as well. It’s enjoyable to make things and keep my hands busy, and this is something I can do when I do not have much energy. Hobbies are essential, so is learning new skills. I challenge you to learn something new today!

Doing Too Much

I apologize for the lack of posts. I’ve been dealing with these bouts of extreme exhaustion (with other symptoms) for the past few months; my mental health professional thinks it’s hypothyroid (both my parents have it). Unfortunately, recent blood tests put my thyroid function at the low end of normal, so getting someone to look into it further is…going to be a struggle. I haven’t had the mental or physical energy to deal with the uphill battle as of yet.

I’ve been working on my stories when I have the mental capacity to do so (I have collected quite a bit of inspiration) and am also learning to crochet via YouTube because in the past knitting has helped me deal with overwhelming anxiety. I’m dealing with anxiety and stress right now because I’m feeling useless for not bringing in more income or keeping up on the household chores. On top of that, we’re looking at moving which means I’ve been trying to clean, organize, and cull things to prepare for showing the townhouse as well as prep for moving. My eczema has flared up as a result. So rude of it!

I think I may be trying to accomplish too much all at once. Haha. I’m prioritizing moving and doing the other things when I have to rest but do not need a nap.

New Diagnoses

I apologize for the absence of posts, I’ve been busy with work and having to deal with health issues that have cropped up. In addition to that, I’m trying to get the floors redone in the townhouse so that we can sell and buy a home with a yard. Which means moving stuff around to make room to do that, which means my newly diagnosed spinal arthritis isn’t happy with me.

Looks like the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree. Heh. My mother also has osteoarthritis in her spine, though her’s is far worse than mine. I’m starting early though, apparently.

Gif from Giphy.

Consent: Platonic Touch

Captain Awkward is amazing! The advice the Captain provides for people is valuable and essential because we too often are not socialized with healthy personal boundaries. Both as a giver and as a receiver.  My mom is not good with boundaries, she wants to hug, and “mother” everyone and people are often too nice to say something. *I* don’t want to be hugged all the time either, but growing up my consent was ignored, and I had to give/receive hugs whether I wanted them or not.

via #1080: “Telling a classmate to keep their hands to themselves.”

Feelings on Florida

In regards to this latest act of domestic terrorism:

Yes, I’m going to call it terrorism, the point was to terrify the victims and to then destroy them. To become infamous. The shooter wanted attention, he was angry, he’s a product of a toxic culture both close to him, and in our society.

We need to address this as a society. It seems like a lot of these domestic terrorists lack the emotional tools necessary to handle stress, disappointment, toxicity around them, and even fundamental social interactions (i.e., Being rejected as a love interest/sexual partner). We need to make sure that people are equipped emotionally and educationally as they grow up. Find healthy ways to channel their anger and aggression. And end the stigma and scapegoating of those with mental health issues (like depression and anxiety, or autism, etc.), who are more likely to be victims than aggressors. Tossing people in prision*after* they commit the crime is only reactionary, we need to get in front of the issue to prevent further suffering.

We are creating these people because hate and anger in our culture are encouraged; homophobia, transphobia, racism, sexism, fear, toxic masculinity, and hatred of non-christian beliefs or lack of religion. Men are still men even if they cry at a movie, like pink or purple, can cook and do other domestic tasks. Aggression is lauded as a masculine trait, well folks, look what that does. It kills. It destroys lives.

 
We need studies, we need compassion. We need to do better.

Happy V-Day!

Today is a day to celebrate the love in our lives. If you don’t have a romantic Valentine, that’s okay! If you have romantic partner, great! Tell them you love them. If you have multiple romantic partners, awesome! Tell them you love and appreciate them. And do not forget your friends! I feel like we put too much emphasis on romantic relationships and we pass over how important friendships are. I take V-Day to always celebrate my friends as well.

This year my valentine is Tsuki, who has plastered herself to me for the past 4 hours. I love my cats, they are the reason I get up in the morning.

Tsuki Naps
My Valentine is the best snuggle buddy.

I was also gifted a plushie Porg (I ❤ Porgs) and a lovely card as well. ^_^ I will get to snuggling the other kitties soon, but today has been a lousy flare day. My back, fibro, IBS, and sinuses are all in a snit, so it’s been fluids, meds, and heating pads for me.